this one's for you. for making me happy like you always did. real happy. :)

(It starts with)
One thing / I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn't even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried
so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing / I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so (far)
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

maybe life isnt about Big Moments, whether they be good or bad. maybe its all the small things -- like being guided slowly forward, surely, day after day -- tht stretch out to strengthen even the most tenuous bond.

just came back from dinner !! -pats tummy- yummy chicken rice frm pasir ris.

anyhows, towned w yins..did smth tht she made me promise nt to tell anyone so i shant blog abt it. [she wnts it to be a surprise for evryone on mond. but whtevr she did was really cool !! :) ]

walked frm far east to heeren..took neos !! :)) looked really ridiculous in 2pics bt she insists tht i haf funny taste [in fact, thts wht she kps saying thru'out the whole day ._.] n tht all of it is really nice -raises eyebrows- and natural. natural ?! yea naturally ugly. but i bet she musta said it cos she was trying to be nice after accidentally-on-purpose colouring my nose and legs w the background thingie while editing the neos ._. thn walked to taka..had my fave drink !! :) steph. wht is it again ? [she wnted to check out civic plaza if there were any energy pin-ups or whtever but there were none. only had some stuff abt sony's new cam or smth] thn to wisma, thn to far east [saw ths cute bt sissy guy who goes 'hickey' in msges whn he laughs tht she knws so she [okay we] went back far east to see if he was still there..bt he wasnt.] thn back to cine thn to heeren [found ths really cute bikini shop !! shall go bikini shopping w tingx on tues :))] and she musta bn in a really good mood cos she agreed to walk to far east agn to check out smth tht i er, really needed at tht tym. heh. found nth but discovered anothr good perfume shop tht sells miniatures !! :D was darn elated. think yins looked abit bored cos i kpt mking her sniff the diff perfumes and she kpt complaining tht her nose wld b losing its sense of smell soon. but i said wht nonsense n finally i bought bvlgari [or howevr you spell it] mini ! just found out its actually cologne. -faints. the darn woman conned me ! anws, it really smells a lot lyk d&g light blue ! evn yins agreed. [this just proves tht her prev complain of losing her sense of smell is actually a case of pretense] so da, you can gt it for you er, friend who lyks it alot :D and yins must be in a really good mood cos she actually went back to heeren w me w/o any complains ! [okayy we took the bus..] -amazed look-

wanted to let my hair grow really long and then ceramic perm the bottom wavy. but steph seems to be the only one who's agreeable to my plan. oh ! just remembered tht tingx was supportive too ! hmm ! :D

was basically a funn day :))
took my mind off everything.


Shy


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whenever you make a choice, especially one you'd been resisting, it always affected everyone else, some in big ways, like a tremor beneath your feet, others in so tiny a shift you hardly notice a change at all. but it is happening.

met cousins during breakfast. -winks at sis-

finally done reading ths lullaby. its good !!

dont knw why my archives arent working ! -frowns-

couldnt sign gbks ! shall post thm here thn..
da yes, i dont want it ! haha. do not lyk her anm la. seriously. but thanks anyhows. maybe you could gimme a lil peek of them on monday ? :D

THE sis whoops ! just remembered i forgot to tell you tht wyn says hi to you ! -hides- hee. -peeps- youre nt even studying ! happily examining a coin and telling me tht it lks really burnt ! lyk a choco !? sheesh. okay and nw youre singing say goodbye is such an off-key manner. sister, sister. haha i had to tell her or else you'd still b singing tht stupid huan zhu song ! ._. btw tingx wna watch too. can your friend lend her ? haha yes ! we seem to only talk during tues ! so weird. but anws, take care ! and how come you suddnly thot abt tht wallet and dug it up ? its muchmuch nicer than your present one anws. hoho. still think you ought to wash it. and at* looks really corny last tym ! lyk gu dai shi hou or smth ! oh yes. suddnly rememebered. he hasnt signed my gbk ! -glares.

wyn ahem. you signed my gbk and didnt even say hi ?! all you said was a reply to mina ?! -growls. thanks for the movie anw. but i wasnt really concentrating during the whole show. was wondering when my stomach wld stop growling.

stj hey fish-eating shark [!?] haha was waiting for the screen to load when i realised your gbk's called freaky-b ! freaky-b ?! okayokay. yea you told me abt tht stupid star at least a hundred tyms. whts the big deal abt it anws ? its just an orange star tht doesnt blink..shall draw one for you. ok can imagine you grimacing at tht. but yea the star was kinda cool la. jess saw a shooting star ?! wow. yea. shes so toot ! cant stand her tootiness. cn imagine her staring at it. she clda wished tht we were nt only tall, bt pimple-free too ! ._. anws, thanks for being there ! :) felt better.

Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be

Holding hands with you, and we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right
And I've got someone waiting too

This is, this is just the beginning
We're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

Isn't this the best part of breakin' up
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too

It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful

Here we are, we're at the beginning
We haven't fucked yet, but > heads spinning

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

I'd love for you to make me wonder
Where it's goin'
I'd love for you to pull me under
Somethin's growin'
for this that we can control
Baby I am dyin'

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

anws, shld i pon agi tomms and b named inefficient worker or just go and waste my day away ?
-shall go off to mug for chinese !

it's not okay. it really isn't.

happy tchers day :)

towned after school today. was wearing the jersey and da+i felt really out of place ._. watched s.w.a.t ! was quite nice :)
met yins+carol+friend [who i believe is called jinghang ?] and talked. abt err, amanda phoon and her flowered cuff links ?
and i saw my primary school friends too ! everyone's changed so much. so is geraldine a bung nw or wht ? doesnt really lk lyk bt heard tht she is. really wasted. shes got sucha pretty face ! it kinda reminded me tht err, i didnt go back to my primary school ! dnt think anyone did, tho. miss my primary school days ! if only i were still a kid ._.

think i ate smth bad at sakae. having a very bad tummy upset thts been dragging on for ages !! argh. help. -looks at tummy- whats wrong w you ?!

-
and i remember when you told me
that i could trust in you.
and i would, always.

whats happening now is something i cant understand,
something thats not exactly a facade
cos im sure thats not what is really is
right beneath.

so what is it ?
why cant things be the way it was ?
why must we change ?
why is everything so complicated ?

i dont even know what im thinking anymore. its weird, its uncanny, its ironical, its unbelievable, its scary, its horrible, its bizzare, its grotesque, its everything unimaginable. am i making sense ?

Time may take us apart, but I will still love you, I promise.


And when the stars, stars are falling
I'll keep calling

I promise that you'll be my one, my only everything
I'll never be untrue
And I promise that for all your love I will do anything
I will give you the stars, I will buy you the moon

Even through the longest of our nights
And even through the darkest days
Our love will find a way

And when the stars are falling
I'll keep calling
I will still love you
And when your dreams are fading
I'll be waiting
I will still love you

You were my summer breeze, my winter sun, my
springtime soul (springtime soul), my autumn touch of gold Yeah
And you were my sky, my rain, the earth in which my love goes
strong
The smile of my heart and the breath of my soul

Even if we find ourselves apart
We will hold our hopes and dreams
Forever in our hearts

And when the stars are falling
I'll keep calling
I will still love you
And when your dreams are fading
I'll be waiting
I will still love you

Tell me how you feel
I finally know how love feels
Tell me if its real
And my heart tells me its real
So real, So real

And when the stars are falling
I'll keep calling
I will still love you
And when your dreams are fading
I'll be waiting
I will still love you

Time may take us apart, that's true
But I will always be there for you
You're in my heart, you'll be in my dreams
No matter how many miles we've seen
I promise you that I won't forget
The day we kissed or the day we met
The sky may fall and the stars may tilt
But I will still, I will still Love you

And when the stars are falling
I'll keep calling
I will still love you
And when your dreams are fading
I'll be waiting
I will still love you


how i wished things were what they were. that i'd still get that zeal and rush of adrenaline to hug you everytime i see you. that i could still do almost everything with you like we did before. that we were still in that cubicle in aztec laughing at our own silliness. that we were still argueing over you were dian siao er or not. that you would be there to wipe away my tears. that i could tease you about your horniness. that we were everything that we were. and now im playing our song over and over again and wondering what youre doing. wondering if you were still thinking the same way that i do.

i miss you, queen.

hee ! so happyhappy :))

smiled !

hmm. tingx is happily peeping openly at me blog and wearing my jacket ! managed to squeeze into it today..musta shrunk. gonna eat crystal jade l8r agn !! :D jacob's finally outta sight !! whew. can blog alr. watching the league !

poor dinah. really in distress over what happened. haha. -hugs-

* dont knw how things are now.


Which [Seven Dwarfs] are you?


Are you easily stressed?

oh no ?!

breeks w tingx agn !! was reallyreally fun. talking+studying. and the toilet conver !! -dies.

so embarassing today !! was rocking my chair..you know how you tilt your chair till the whole weight is pivoted on only the front two legs or the front leg [realised ths sounds really physics] anws, was putting my pens n stuff back into my pencilcase when one pen was falling off the edge of the table so i reached front to grab it -- only that i forgot my position. and i totally came tumbling down -turns beet red- still remember yins' look of extreme shock n kpt asking if i was okay. and when i got up, the first person i turn to was tingx n she looked shocked and really amused ._. hmphs.

and everyone laughed after i sprang up and announced that i was fine. mrs koh just felt the importance to tell our class about this story about how she hit her head on the table while bowing to a teacher once ._.

-growls.

happy bdae, ms jacob !!

touching moment in class todayy !! ms jacob's bdae and we got her a surprise..got wai to act sick and get ms jacob down. and we sprang out from the balcony and brought out the cheescake+strawberries [her fave !!] birthday cake. and thr's ths bracelet w the letter 'A' and a heart attached to it. lyk aww !! she ws so touched n everything !! and the cheesecake was delicious :D and everyone was lyk smiling so damn happily and jumping around and taking pictures n hugging each other !! hee. soso touching, it was. :))

watched save the last dance. its so sweet. :) and the dancing was fab ! tho i didnt see wht was so cute abt sean patrick thomas, it was still a gr8 show. esp whn m munching violet crumble n drinking choc frappe !! :D happyhappy.

okay. think im kinda easily pleased. hah.

It's gonna be love
It's gonna be great
It's gonna be more than I can take
It's gonna be free
It's gonna be real
It's gonna change everything I feel
It's gonna be sad
It's gonna be true
It's gonna be me, baby
It's gonna be you, baby
It's gonna be.....
It's gonna be love

-dances away.

There's always something
In the way
There's always something
Getting through
But it's not me
it's You

Sometime's ignorance
Rings true
But hope is not in
What I know
Not in me
It's in You

It's all I know

And I find peace
When I'm confused
I find hope when
I'm let down
Not in me
But in You

I hope to lose myself
For good
I hope to find it in the end
Not in me
It's You
It's all I know

tell me why.

how I wish that you were here,
Beside me,
To wipe away my tears.

And it's a leap of faith,
When you believe there's someone out there,
It's a leap of faith when you believe that someone cares, oh,
And when I call out to you,
Will you be right there,
Right there.

Waiting for the answer,
Remembering times we would share,
Somehow I feel you here beside me,
Even though your not there.


-

suddnly mighty upset.

oh well.

its the past.
everything.
you left me behind.
its time for me to let go too.

and its times like this
when i think about you
and realise this is all wrong.
very wrong.

but its too late
cos im caught up in your web.
but i cant untangle myself.
cos you wouldnt even help.

stop it wendy. stop it.

rahh.

-

watched the tale of the two sisters !! feeling so movie-ish. continuous movie days. anws, its a really successful scary movie !! the scariest movie ive watched..compared to the eye, three and all. but the beginning is really boring. you'll feel lyk you're watching a silent film or smth. bt l8r on, it gets really exciting !! bt maybe a tad too exciting ._. totally freaked the hell outta everyone. didnt really help w ths grp of irritating schoolgirls in the first few rows. ths girl has a really shrill voice n she's always screaming for nth. -growls. and ths idiotic guy made ths horrible sound n she shrieked ! and she has ths really loud voice tht everything tht she whispers to her friends travel all the way up. argh. anws, the show aint those stupid kinda scary shows which has really dumb endings and make you ponder what the hell did you spend you money watching. well, its just my opinion tht its good la.

everybody is asking if its good ! i lyked it bt maybe you wldnt. -shrugs.

okayy. think i sound lyk some freak writing an auto review abt i movie i just watched. ms jacob ought to be prouda me. shall stop ths rubbish at once.

was talking abt smth to tingx ths morning. guess i was too ji dong. my nail scratched a part of my skin on my hand off !! ._. yikes. bathed w a hand !! and i forgot chemistry starts at 9 so at 8.45 i was figging irritated w my hand doing its single shift and taking sucha long tym. after rushing, found out it starts at 9 ._. think chemistry is kinda weird. leaves you feeling nth much even after the ending.

oh ! ate crystal jade agn !! the dessert !! -swoons.
bought save the last dance vcd. off to watch it !! :D -happyhappy.

we left it all behind -
without even saying goodbye.

watched how to deal today with xiaoshu :) it was really good. bt book's better tho. i bet you're is busy illusionising now, bestie ! -cheeky grin- ate at crystal jade !! havnt bn there for a long tym. yummyyumm. was really fun :D scared ourselves silly [again] during the train ride and whn we entered the theatre too..cos my seat - e3, wasnt flipped up lyk all seats r supp to be. it was flat dwn tho nobdy was sitting on it ._.

When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly
And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,
I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than youll know
And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
Thats when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing can make you change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
No matter what

thts the ending song of how to deal. really nice ! :)
simply irritated. signmyguestbook's down again !! the person who coined it sucks !
anws, physics test !! -growls. super irritated. for the open-ended qns, i only had one qn entirely right !! for the ticker tape timer qn, i put 11 instd of 10 regardless of the 3 tyms i counted to mke sure it was 11 !! ._. and for the last qn, i put cosine instd of sine !! and if thts nt enough, 1/2v²=100 was supp to be v²=200 but of course, my smart brain cells

forgot about that and i wrote 50 instd. -groans.

dies.

One less call to answer,
Feeling full of despair,
Don't think I can get through it,
Just one last prayer.

And it's a leap of faith,
When you believe there's someone out there,
It's a leap of faith when you believe that someone cares
And when I call out to you,
Will you be right there,
Right there.

got my choc frappe !! :D

happy day today.
even tho
^x i failed the bloody math test which i did in a daze

the othr day ._.

^x she didnt rply my retarded msg tht i cant believe

yins talked me into sending.

i guess friends can turn a bad day the other way round. :)

to m' angel yins hey dear :) you made my dayy !! but err no need to try strangling me from the back and giving me a huuge scare. and you !! must fwd her some msg sometym okayy ?!! and tell me wht she send you back !! youre sucha silly girl. -smiles widde- p.s. still think you look nicer w/o tht ridiculous clip at the top of your head. you look more..you knw, piao1 piao1 ran2. hee ! :D

to bestie hey !! decided not to call you huang shang'r for once. hope youre up and well alr. rem to just err bend your head over when you find your world spinning alryt ? thanks for all your rides. and endless entertaining crap everyday. loveya to bits. and im not bOring wendy k !! -glares-

excited abt watching how to deal on weds and the tale of two sisters on fri !! -squeals-

oh yes ! cant believe i forgot to blog abt sissy zhao. hafta congratul8 him for finding a girlfriend who cldnt haf suited him better. saw them [he&his stead] at far east on saturday. as usual, he had anothr one of his awful hairdos and a pink shirt. and nxt to him was his girlfriend..one look and you'd know that they suit each othr just fine. sporting a disgusting hairdo and an exaggerated [and not to mention AA] outfit, she musta been his ideal stead. -claps- he has finally outgrown his habit of bugging me now that he has found a mate. he musta been gloating away in his little puny head thinking : ' HA ! to all my exes who thought i was sissy and too AA for them, i've found someone who doesnt think so ! so there ! ' -rolls eyes-
yes, im not the only ex of his who thinks he sucks. after speaking to another one of the victims who fell for his traps, i cant feel more comforted that im not the only person on ths earth who has gone through this. i knw i musta bn sounding so mean but im just stating facts.
hope i would never see him again so everything officially ends.

ugh.

-off to study for physics.

am totally craving for delifrance choc frappe nw. oh where art thou my sister !!? shouldve known better than to let her bathe !! she takes ages.

getting my specs on tues ! sucha longg tym l8r. eyes hurt lyk hell and cldnt pt contacts. walked ard w a blurred vision. hmm. i lyk my new specs !! :)

princess diaries 4.5 is such an dumb idea. why cant they just publish the fifth book right away ? i finished reading it while towning ytd ! nerdified me but yes. the point is, i hafta wait for god knows how many donkey years to get to read the other half of the damn book. -growls.

oh sis is back ! and she has to wait for her hair to dry before we can leave. oh my choc frappe ! -_-"'

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oh. and now our princess says she isnt going. after hours of waiting.
of course.

^xIt's all a state of mind

But I don't mind
Trying to find a way to keep my head
above the mess I make
What the world creates
Sometimes it feels so good to let it
all fall as we will fall
I may fall we all fall
And then the world comes tumbling down
down down down down^x

do things have to turn out this way ?
for me to give you up
why is it always all the same ?
its always me snapping myself shut.

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yipeeeee ! im so overjoyed :) the damn virus thing is finally gone from my comp ! thanks wai for sending me tht !! :) was darn irritated ! -grr. only cld use the comp in school during the english lessons. which is so s-l-o-w ._. and i had to be careful to keep out from the watchful eyes of jacob !

did chem+e.lit tests ytd. totally gonna flunk chem. argh. ihatemole ! -growls angrily-

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towned w yins, xin, carol + qing ! took neos. so fun !! :D -looks at xin n exclaims : horny king !- hoho. n tht awfully retarded pic of me !! oh no !! nobdy shld shw it to anyone else k ! stupid qing ! insisted on choosing tht pic regardless of my protests ! -grr.
was abt to run in the rain till someone asked ths woman to lend us her umbrella. and 4 of us squeezed into tht tiny thing and moved so ever slowly across the road cos qing+carol who were standing behind kpt complaining tht we were moving too fast. musta looked comical ._.

bought j.lo miniature ! nice scent :) bt they dnt haf the cute lil studded j.lo thingie on the miniature :( oh well.

sj was damn slack today !! just packed the room and decorated ths thingie to cover up the stupid hole. was qt disastrous in the end ! -looks at yins- it was really a-go-go-ish n glittery whn it was first done ! bt thn aft tian1 you2 jia1 chu4-ing, it turned out lyk some horrible thing ripped off the opera stage ! eeks. and i told kiat+rina abt my freaky dream. and kiat thought it was real !! -screams. it was not real, girl !! eeps !! i will not let tht happn man !! dnt think im evr gonna wear it anw.

oh my. sis just told me a dirty joke.

mother : i thought i taught you what to say when a stranger touches you ? when he touches your boobs, you should go : 'dont !' and when he touches your pussy, you should go : 'stop !'

daughter : yes, i know ! the guy touched my boobs+pussy at the same tym, so i told him : 'dont stop !'

oh my, oh my ._. what is the world coming to ?

back in the lab doing the stupid english thing agn ! and everybody is so pleased when they get 100%.. heh. da just clapped with joy happily and exclaims 'i got 100 !' -shakes head- and tingx is irritating me agn !! bugging everyone asking them whether shes manly or not ._. -rolls eyes-

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am in sucha dazed mood. feeling sleepy and clueless about everything. -yawns- im so not gna flunk my math test tht i just took ._. oh wells.

and da just squealed cos she got 70% only. and jesmine just exclaimed happily tht she only had 50%.. whts w my clsmates ?!
ookayy. tingx just gasped in a very upset manner. cos she got 50% only too. wow. everybody's so stressed !! i better go do mine too.

-sigh ._.
cheer up, tingx. -huggs- the chinese tcher sucks alright ? we all knw tht. -nods-

da here (:
-does magic spell and makes alll ur troubles disappear.. POOF!-
all gone! ((:

heh. silly girl. supp to be doing english arguementative crap nw. who has the mood man ?! -grr.
--off to do the bloody thing before there's more trouble.

when i saw what your reply was, my heart sank ten metres below the ground. i guess what i thought we three tried holding on was not true on your side. its true how it was my fault years ago. but you know how it is, at the spur of the moment. well, just to let you know, we are most apologetic about all that and i cant believe you're really slipping away. for good. maybe a year of fun and goodness 3years ago was pushed all the way back of your head.

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i'm b o r e dd.

have four tests to mug for, but i cant bring myself to study ._.

wendy !! what is wrong with you !? -frowns at self-



watched the station
saw the bus pulling through
and i dont mind saying
a part of me left with you.


You represent... naivete.
So innocent and trusting... you can be very shy at
times, but it's only because you're not sure
how to act. You give off that "I need to
be protected vibe." Remember that not all
people are good. Being too trusting will get
you easily hurt.


What feeling do you represent?
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-yucks ! i do not !! ._.


You are Love.

You love life, you love all those around you and
the world that you live in. You are happiest
when you are doing something for someone else
or for the common good of mankind.


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- ?!

okayy. i will go study now !! now.

happy bdae, qing !! :)


xXxi miss you in every way. dont say goodbye.xXx

changed layout again. fickle me. hoho. wai !! hope you see this !! the links are really weird !! some of it has the right colors, the others dont. help me !! thanks. :)

towned w yins, carol, xin, xiu, elaine, bern and qing [the bdae girl !!] actually it was more like only yins cos the rest kpt moving around without us and we kpt getting stuck in shops checking out the stuff !! had many corny encounters so it was basically fun :)) and i dont see whats wrong w my pin on my top !! i had to keep it from falling apart !!

and , dont be too upset , sweetie !! -plucks rose for you- heh. cheer up alryt ?
and xin too !! kingkingking. dont really understand why you got so flustered after seeing your ex and had to rush home but cheer up alright ?? -hugs-
and yins ! bu yao shang xin le ! m sure you'll see ___ real soon. things dont come by easy alryt ? -hugs tight-

was sucha ex-y day. saw my sissy ex too. -rolls eyes- was trying to avoid him w all my might but yins !! grr. and i wont forgive you for pulling down my denim skirt on the escalator and revealing my !! for people to see !! -growls my tiger growl which is something im qt an expert at-

met some other people and yins went with them cos carol and i wanted to get home [holland v !!] saw lex cob and wendy [sme name !! -looks at yins and laughs about the mother story of hers- hoho] and sweetie+angel said she lks a lil lyk shuwei frm energy !! -faints- no, girls. she does not.

-boo !! hee.
//okayy tht was my so-not-very-lame sister ._.

realised i forgot to say : happy national day ! :) heh.
and that i bought my anna sui dolly girl and escada hippie ibiza [is ths wht it is ?!] miniature :) -whooopee !-

//eck ! its what ? ibiza hippie. -hides- so embarassing !! whoops. thanks, wyn.

i hate aching inside but that seems to be the only way out. i hate thinking about this but it never leaves my mind.
am i inferior ? am i boring you ? am i not what you thought i would be ? do you take me for me ? am i just a substitute ? have you ever stopped and think : how your actions toward me hurts. im sick of pondering so much, im sick of wondering why. people change, change so rapidly i cant catch you up. its like me turning to you the next day and find you gone. or me two years later on the streets, and you brushing past me like you didnt know me. like the friendship we had wasnt important. like it was nothing. i miss the way things were when you were you and me, me. clue me in about whats going on. i need to know. why you're pushing me away. away from you ; further and further , out of reach. i need to know. or i would be forced to think about what i never wanted to believe was the root of it all ; was friendship less important than stalks of roses ? or am i just a thorn ?

-

and i wanted to give you everything she's not giving.
i try to smile but i cant remember.
and i know tomorrow there'll be nothing else.

Maybe I'd do better on my own
No one ever seems to understand me
It's easier for me to be alone
There's still a piece of me that feels so empty

Where are you now?
I'm trying to get by with never knowing at all
What is the chance of finding you out there?
Do I have to wait forever?

I write about the things I'll never know
I can find a moment just to a slow down
It makes me think I'll never have the chance
To figure out… what it's all about
So tell me… what it's all about… 'cause

Where are you now?
I'm trying to get by with never knowing at all
What is the chance of finding you out there?
Do I have to wait forever?

Where are you now?
I'm trying to get by with never ever knowing at all
And I still don't know

Where are you now?
I'm trying to get by with never ever knowing at all
What is the chance?
Of finding you out there
Do I have to wait, do I have to wait, do I have to wait forever?

Now, don’t just walk away
Pretending everything’s ok
And you don’t care about me
And I know there’s just no use
When all your lies become your truths and I don’t care...

You took all there was to take,
And left with an empty plate
And you don’t care about it, yeah.
And I, I’ve given up this game
I’m leaving you with all the blame cause I don’t care,

Do you really have everything you want?
You could never give something you ain't got
You can’t run away from yourself
come on tell it to my face or have i been erased,
Are you happy now ?

Would you look me in the eye?
Could you look me in the eye?
I’ve had that all I can take
And I’m about to break
Cause I’m happy now,
Are you happy now?

im finding my way back to you
and everything we used to be
and waiting is all that i can do
until you find your way back to me
what if i said what i was thinking ?
what if that said too much ?
well, i cant care much now
when everyone's got a reason
i feel like giving up

i didnt notice
but i didnt care
i tried being honest
but that led me nowhere
i watched the station
saw the bus pulling through
and i dont mind saying
a part of me left with you

how can you turn and walk away
pretending everything's okay?
how can you turn your back ?
tell me ho ya gonna love me like that
well, i thought you'd listen
but im shattered like broken glass
well i thought that you were different, babe
yeah i though that we would last
and i know this world keeps on spinning
every minute that youre in it
how can you just break away ?
why cant you find the words to say ?
love is something you work at,
tell me why ya gonna love me like that
how can you throw us away ?
look at what you lost today
now everything is shades of grey
and now youre pushing me away
say all the things you want to say
thought we were going all the way
play all the games you wanna play
slowly we'll just fade away

so im counting my tears while i get over you.
sometimes i watch the world go by
i wonder what its like to see you everyday
with that smile on your face
everytime you walk away,
i pretend im okay.

towned w tingx today..had loadsa fun err, scaring ourselves with the ghost stories ppl told us !! ran outta han's when we got horribly freaked out at one point. in the end it became comical stories.. -looks at tingx n attempts strangling her- and my boxing story !! :D it was not stupid okay !! shall attempt scaring ppl w tht story tomms :) hee. bought the first miniature for my perfume collection !! :)) d&b light blue..gonna buy some more tomms !! extremely happy today. :)

sorry, da !!

Lately, I can't be happy for no one
They think I need some time to myself
I try to smile but I can't remember
I know tomorrow there'll be nothing else

And I, wanted to be
Giving you everything
She's not giving
And I wanted to see
Because you didn't believe what I'd been hearing

You turned out to be more than I bargained for
And I can tell that you need to get away
Forgive me if I meant that I'd love to love you
We both realized it way too late

And I, wanted to be
Giving you everything
She's not giving
And I, wanted to see
Because you didn't believe what I'd been hearing
Maybe this wind blowing in just came from the ocean

xXx im white.
you're black.
when will we be grey ? xXx

oh man !! i never knew there was so much blood + pus [talk about being gross] in tht stupid pimple on my nose !! yikes. helluva gross. woke up ths morning to find out it burst and blood was spewing out !! squeezed and squeezed it till it filled the whole piece of cotton wool ._. its currently half the size of what it was during the camp. still hafta squeeze it l8r tonight -sigh.

think i might die from excess blood loss.

so everyone must say their last words to me !! before you cant see me anymore. [ esp you. im gonna die remembering tht you havnt spoke a word to me since last friday ! ._. not tht you actually know. ]

oh !! i found my fave shop in far east !! level 3 sells the best range of miniature !! cnt wait to get there again and get the stuff -grins-

Which [Charlie's Angels] characters are you?


Do you need a boy/girl friend now?

-whot?

2fast2furious rocks !

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we share
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets

Nothing lasts forever though we wanted to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Cause true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things that we'll wish we've never said
In a year from now
Maybe we will see each other
Standing on the same street corner
No regrets

Each and every end is always written in the start
If only I could stop the world I'd make this lasts

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Cause true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll comfort you
Nothing will ever change the way I feel

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in everyday
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because the true love never dies

finally back from camp !! hafta say it was really quite fun :) apart frm the disastrous sun burns and night scares. all of us were darn freaked out for no reason or rhyme and had to resort to singing at the top of our lungs and linking arms while we made our way to the pe rm loo. and we had to sing in the shower too cos we were still quite freaked !! esp me ; cos only my cubicle's shower thingie was coming out with what seemed like endless supply while the others only had drips coming outta theirs !! and mine was the last cubicle !! so i got freaked. heh. okay stupid reason bt i dnt knw why i was so scared !! ._. maybe it was 7th mth or smth. and it also definitely has got smth to do with the freaky stories abt school tht has bn spreading ard. -covers eyes- eeks !! better nt talk abt it anm.

hem hem.

pop was kinda sadd, i guess. bt really few ppl cried. silly oic and aic. asked thm go haf a speech and they stood together and started bawling together !! but its really fast ths year !! lyk swoosh and we're taking over !! lyk whoa. wna remain sec2 forever. dnt really lyk the way sec3 is. maybe the scientists should go check out if tym is passing way too fast. its unbelievable !! the torture at night wasnt too bad considering wht the past year seniors had in store for us last tym. and haf you ever heard of anyone running away from camp and calling her seniors jerks ?! sheesh ! bt i guess she was really pissed. -shrugs-

oh and i'll never forget the disastrous experience of attempting to decorate the forum. rina has really wild ideas. lyk 'recycling' the musking tape of the fluid fusion posters and tearing from them to form the letters whn everything wnt wrong in the end !! the school's gonna be furious to find out wht we did w their precious posters ._. just discovered how much paint there actually is in a bottle of spray. its enough to form lyk, twenty letters or smth ? -smacks head- the newspaper plan was quite successful tho ! :)

-looks at van, rina, eileen and fel- gamblers rock !! :) oh, and nt to forget fisherman too. :p hee ! finally mastered the skills of mahjong. :) okay maybe nt mastered, bt at least i learnt it alr !! had sex talk and tht definitely kept us awake till 2+.. and didnt knw tht rina was so bian tai !! bringing the porn movie lyk tht !! nt tht we cld watch it or anything. it was pirated ._. and eileen !! she actually knws practically all the names of the positions ? and van, im sorry for hogging your sleeping bag. heh. had a really weird conver while i was half asleep.

me : van, can you pls gimme a lil space of your sleeping bag ? -tugs at sleeping bag- byebye.

van : thanks.

oh man ! we're both mad ! i was half aslp and thot i was talking on the phone so i went lyk byebye. and van ? thanks ?! sheesh. the weird things ppl say.

anws, fluid fusion. was quite fun too ! :) went w xin, carol, bern + elaine. met phylicia [is ths hw you spell her name ?] and her other friends..anws, the main point was standing at the balcony or whtevr it is, and being able to spot ____ !! xin and her sharp eyes ! :) extraordinarily cute tht night. oh wellsers. and i was wearing tht funny dress !! haha. dnt knw wht got into me bt suddenly had a liking for such stuff..gna buy the pants one day !! ladidums. :) but it was okay right ? i mean, i didnt lk lyk i was trying to sweep the ground with it or anything. dance was really good btw. and co nt bad either. ld good too !! bt i think sitting upclose lyk tht tym in the drama studio had a much better effect. and the lil primary dance girls !! oh man. darn cute !! if only i were one of thm. gee-

p.s. tingx !! stop your fa hua chi-ing !! missya, babe. :)
p.p.s steph ! you're really silly. it wasnt you, okayy ? -hugs- happy tht its cleared. :)